My eyes know death, the heart knows a brokenness that cannot be explained.
My mind knows chaotic silence and scattered thoughts that run rampant with no stop in sight.
My body knows a deep pain, scars wrapped around stark white flesh that no longer bleeds.
My reality knows nothing about truths, it only knows the ins and outs of lies that the world spews.
There is no happiness behind these dark eyes, the light burned out long ago.
This heart does not and cannot beat any longer...
With this knife all hell shall cease but these damned tears flow like rivers from aquamarine eyes.
I just want to be safe in my own skin, happy again.
I just want to
My thoughts have become my temporary hell
As my mind runs a mile a minute with no shut off switch in sight.
This gnawing aching feeling to be wanted, to be touched won't cease.
Desire to feel again courses through these veins of mine.
I'm so sick and tired of this numbness that has plaugued me for so long.
I just want to be held tight as sobs shatter my soul.
This body of mine is so empty floating aimlessly into oblivion...
No hope to ever bring me back from this hellish reverie.
I am suffocating on feelings I wish would silence
But they scream begging to come to the crimson light.
I lay awake in the darkness as fear casts shadows inside my mind.
I feel like I am all alone
With nothing but thoughts that I do not speak running rampant.
All this pain...
Back and forth inside my mind a million times I've blamed myself,
Something so uncontrollable and out of my grasp of understanding.
I close my eyes and my reality becomes me, soaking despair into these fibers of my soul.
I'm left alone here as the darkness consumes me leaving an empty shell of what I used to be.
My thoughts are choking me as I silently scream inside my head.
It doesn't feel right and here I am falling...
I can't cry any more for these hazel eyes have crie